Breaking Habits...

I wanted to try something different,

Can you even believe we're coming up half way through 2021?

It's unbelievable how these days feel so long but yet time is just flying by.

Lately I've been seeing a ton of people using these social sites and never showing their real and raw face. You know the larger eyes, larger lips, smooth face, you know what I'm talkin' about! When I scroll through Snapchat, Twitter or Instagram etc. I see all of these smooth modified faces, "perfectly" contoured, tanned edits. I see myself going to snap a selfie and I too tend to like the filtered photo before I even consider posting my real and natural self. For my generation we grew up with the different phases of technology from landlines, AOL, dial up, T9, sidekicks, razors, paying $1 a minute, busy signals, Nextel chirps, my personal favorite was my Verizon chocolate phone, recording shout outs from our friends on the radio to the beginning of Myspace coding our own layouts to Facebook now we have the internet at our fingertips, every moment of every day. We all have an addiction and taking time away from this false reality is much needed. I have pulled back a little from posting so frequently on my social profiles within the last year or two, I also have a million kids so to even have enough time to concentrate on a post is scarce in it self. (as my 3year old walks into my room wanting to cuddle)

This is no way a judgement to those who love using filters and modifications as I said I do it too, but for the month of June I want to pull back that go-to habit of using a filter just to clean my face up or "look better". To be happy with who I initially see in the photo, a self love month; hopefully this will turn into a self love journey and kick these habits of talking myself out of showing my true features. Don't get me wrong, I love myself, I love my familial features, my body but sometimes that little ounce of doubt consumes me and convinces me otherwise, and that is the habit I want to kick. Comparison is the thief of Joy and this saying rings so true. 

I'm working from home full-time and I'm up with the kids throughout the night, I barely have enough time to brush my teeth in the morning and every night have very little energy left to give myself the pep talk to shower. Its a day by day drag, I know. The month of June I just want to challenge myself and not use ANY facial filters, the goal is to later on use them for fun, for the heck of it not because I'm feeling insecure about my imperfections, who's willing to embrace their beautiful imperfections with me..